simple but good.

i decided i would check in... it's been a little while for me. i was like three posts behind! oops. actually, i have to make this quick. but i saw where sarah was interested in going through ruth together. i went to the ruth bible study this morning and i was so encouraged. i have been "battling" a crush... which is what it really feels like to me. a battle. because i want it but i can't have it kind of thing. and in the midst of that, i think if i truly love the Lord, then i would not be struggling with this. today we were talking about naomi's life. we looked at this verse... "I went away full, and the LORD has brought me back empty. Why call me Naomi, when the LORD has testified against me and the Almighty has brough calmity upon me?", Ruth 1:21. we talked about naomi's anger, should she be angry? should she question God? should we look upon her with contempt? sometimes i get angry, because i have been blessed to meet and be around solid Christian, cute guys. and i never get to enter into relationships... instead i'm left with this longing. and it gets frustrating. especially because i think that if i was more holy, if i loved Him more, than i would not long for these things as much. but this is what richard said... when we try to deny our feelings. when we try to be holy in spite of any anger inside of us... we are trying to offer to God a holiness of our own which does not exist. it's me trying to earn my salvation when He has said that i have fallen short. and in that shortage, in that temptation, in that anger, i take it to God. to a God that sympathizes with our weakness because He has been tempted in every way. ahhh! good stuff.

ok, i have to go... but i love ya'll. and have a beautiful weekend.

"If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." - 1 John 1:8-9